Monday, September 12, 2011
A sad departure
Today, at 12:00, we were a few people in front of Elodie's building, standing there to support her and her grand-parents.
Today, at 12:30 precisely, two women came to take Elodie to her new family.
Today, at 12:45, Elodie walked away and we yelled at her: See you soon, Elodie! We love you!
Elodie was a big girl today. She shed a few tears, then took her little purple suitcase, hugged everybody and walked away. She turned around and waved to us, and she was smiling.
She had her school bag, a backpack and a little suitcase. That's all she took with her. She was wearing a necklace and a belt made with African shells. She told me they were lucky charms. She said she took all her lucky charms with her. I said: Then you're going to have a lot of luck, sweetheart. I put my hand on her cheek.
Today, I had locked my tears deep inside my heart. I stood there with no tears while everybody was crying. I thought Elodie would need someone with a smile and that's what I came there with. A smile that said: You're going to be ok.
Today, at 1:30, people were already gossiping about what had happened. I went back home and my little boy had just finished eating. I hugged him and smelled him. My mind was crowded with questions and sadness. My stomach was torn.
I keep telling myself that she's going to be ok. Deep inside me, there is a river of tears waiting to get out, getting my eyes wet. My heart is soaked with tears but I can't cry. I would like to, but I just can't.